::sigh::  Other people got to spend the night but they were going on this bird walk thing the next day so I couldnt. GAYGE.  I don't want to come back to this family, I want to stay there with my friends.  I miss them so much.  I also have talked to people I've only seen a few times but have never held a conversation with.  It was pretty nifty...I especially love when people I don't know really well laugh at my jokes.  Makes me  feel HELLA special. ^^;;  Beth and I, we got into this stupid fight thing in 7th grade and we talked today and said how much we missed eachother and are going to make plans to hang out.  I feel bad about what I did and I need to make it up to her, she really was a good friend. :) 
From my close friends I learned sooo much, and from other people too with talking and truth or dare.  Parties are a fantastic way to make new friends and to get to know others.  I sound like a moron. e_e;  At least I looked pretty while I was there! 
OMFG, when Zack kept talking about not having a girlfriend I wanted to pounce on him and shove my tongue down his throat (well, not really) to let him know that I like him. O_O  I always feel bad when I lay next to a guy on a bed or somthing and they shift away from me...I think about it and they probably don't even know they're doing it but I'm just that way.  When I left I gave Zack a REALLY good hug.  I miss him and everyone so much it hurts.  I also almost cried because I wanted Amber to be there but she was on the other end of the country while we're sitting here having a great time.  I felt horrible. 
So now I'm home, with a lump in my throat, a pang in my heart, and a crick in my neck.  Angie's party is tomarrow and I wasn't invited and I deserve because I'm mean but for my party I'm inviting everyone who was at this one, including the people I don't really know. lol  Including Angie.  I need more friends and need to learn to be nice to people.  I can't just be a heartless bitch all the time.