Seth, the cutest nephew ever, is over here for 4th of July weekend.  I'm not exactly sure why I'm spending this time making another entry for my blog because I need to clean up the family room.  Julia just bought the 4th season of South Park! AH!  So I'm gonna go over to her house and watch ALL the DVDs, I am.  She also just got hermit crabs and I wanna see them so bad. XD  Tomarrow Julia, Becky and I are going to this fireworks show in the highschool field.  It's gonna kick so much arse to spend time, AT NIGHT, with 2 of my very good friends. Woo!
We have no money, we have no food, I have not had breakfast and I'm freakin' hungry.  I would have had breakfast if we have any breakfast food but, no, we don't.   

(Note:  Excuse the overuse of swear words in the following entry.)

OMFG!  I fucking hate this computer! It took me forever just to get it here and I don't know how the hell it got fucked up so bad.  A virus, perhaps?  I am this close ::makes fingers centimeter apart:: to taking hedge clippers and cutting all the cords.  Last night, it took me 23 tries to turn it on.  I leave the room, and my mom turns it off. -_-  I was SO SO SO pissed.  Took even longer to set it up this morning!  And when time comes to have to restart, I don't even want to think about it.

I just realized how much I hate shopping at the mall.  First of all, because I either have very little to no money at all and it's just fucking torture to watch people carry around bags while I was around in my ratty old jeans that just happen to be the only pair I own.  The people are so fucking stereotypical it drives me up the wall.  I don't belong ANYWHERE!  I'm a freaking outcast and I hate it, I don't have a 'group'.  I'm so different from everyone, and it's hard to relate to mankind period.  I understand that there's no such thing as the perfect friends or even just 1 friends.  But can't there be SOMEBODY who I at least relate to more than 85% of the time?!  Hm, exept Amber, but she just HAPPENS to live in West Virgina.  How utterly perfect is that I ask you, hm?

We are getting my mom's check on Friday and Lindsey is talking about getting a pool and everything.  She needs to brutally murdered by a stampede of raging fire ants.  Binyons is having a 50% off sale so, DUH, I need I my goddamn frames you sonsabitches.  Oh, and did I mention that I havent even gotten the rest of my birthday present yet?  My birthday was on June 5th and my oher present was $60 of art supplies.  Nothing yet, not a damn thing. 

Fuck this, I'm going to go beat somthing and eat.

Abortion?:	It should be aloud up until a certain age of the fetus. Like, when it gets a brain.
Death Penalty?:	Should be more brutal. They should have death rooms with hired executioners to maul them to death.
Prostitution?:	Old men and skanks piss me off. Drown them.
Alcohol?:	Good on occasion but you should not be a drunk. Tsk tsk.
Marijuana?:	I already told myself to never try the stuff. Some of my friends think it's cool. ::eye roll::
Other drugs?:	You can't become addicted unless you start so DON'T DO IT.
Gay marriage?:	Let 'em get married! What the fuck is wrong with people who are against it?!
Illegal immigrants?:	Shoot them.
Smoking?:	It smells bad, it's disgusting, and UGH.
Drunk driving?:	I'm afraid to be in the car on holidays while in town. Drunks in big ass trucks.
Cloning?:	Do it! You can bring endangered species back up to par, etc. Stupid, stupid christians...
Racism?:	Some racist jokes ARE funny...but in a harmless way...but racism is bad. >>
Premarital sex?:	Have sex.
Religion?:	People have been mislead and I strongly believe in my faith.
The war in Iraq?:	War is SO STUPID. Thousands of innocent people killed because of greed and men. GAH.
Bush?:	I HATE HIM!
Downloading music?:	If you don't get caught, more power to ya.
The legal drinking age?:	18.
Porn?:	Good for masterbation, not good to get your morals from.
Suicide?:	Permanant solution to a temporary problem. How could you do that? But I get really irritated with those people who keep saying they're going to kill themselves but don't.

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current clothing:	AAR shit, yellow froggie pajama pants, knee high pink and white stripey socks
current mood:	Moodless.
current taste:	Sunflower seeds.
current hair:	Down, wet, clean.
current annoyance:	Sister playing waterguns behind me.
current smell:	Dog.
current thing you ought to be doing:	Cleaning, making an Avon list, scratching myself.
current jewelry:	Just piercing jewelry.
current book:	The Goats, The Diary of Ellen Rimbauer, Weetzie Bat, Fat Kid Rules the World. I read more than one book at once.
current refreshment:	None.
current worry:	If I'm going to have a ride for sure to Blake's house on Tuesday.
current crush:	Blake. What?
current favorite celebrity:	Thora Birch, Daniel Radcliffe
current longing:	Coke, art supplies, makeup, money, perfume
current music:	Funny Honey - Chicago Soundtrack
current wish:	To be thin.
current lyric in your head:	Making love was just for fun.
current makeup (if you're a girl!):	None. I know, wow.
current undergarments:	Blue undies, pink bra.
current regret:	Not washing my face last night.
current desktop picture:	Draco Malfoy
current plans for tonight/weekend:	Nothing.
current cuss word du jour:	Fuck.
current disappointment:	FLEAS! ::SCRATCH::
current amusement:	Myself and my singing.
current IM/person you're talking to:	Michelle (CA), KK
current love:	Sunflower seeds
current obsession:	Sunflower seeds, books
current avoidance:	Picking at anything.
current thing or things on your wall:	Posters, 4th grade art, perfume ads
current favorite book:	Youth in Revolt
current favorite movie:	The Goonies

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SIMPLE QUESTIONS:
1.What time is it? 6:24 PM
2.What is your name? Kathleen
3.What is your birthday? 6/5/89 I'm 15!  Yeah!
4.How many sibs do you have? 4
5.What are your sibs names? Ugly, Jesse, Erin, Megan
6.Do you have a job? I want to get a summer job and my mom is helping me look.
7.If yes, where? N/A
8.If no to #6, Where do you wanna work? A coffee place because it smells good.
9.Do you have a car? Nope.
10.What kinda car do you have/want? 1968 Chevelle or is it 78...I don't remember.

FAVORITE QUESTIONS:
11.Movie: The Goonies
12.Song: Pretty by Kidney Thieves.  I change my favorites a lot.
13.Band: Kidney Thieves, Veruca Salt, SOAD
14.Group: Backstreet Boys.  What?
15.Singer: Jewel
16.TV Show: South Park, That 70's Show
17.TV Channel: I don't have cable so this question makes me depressed.
18.Actor: Sean Astin
19.Actress: Thora Birch
20.Comic: Get Fuzzy, Sinfest comics
21.Magezine: CosmoGIRL
22.Food: Totino's pizza, nachos
23.Snack: Sunflower seeds
24.Drink: Coke
25.CD-ROM Game: The Sims, Dungeon Keeper
26.Board Game: Candyland, Monopoly
27.Card Game: Speed
28.Kid Game: Candyland
29.Number: 2
30.Cartoon: South Park, Dextors Laboratory.
31.Character:  Um...dunno.
32.Disney Character: Aladdin.  He so hot, he make me horny.  What?
33.Color: Green.
34.Hair Color: Black
35.Time of the day: Sunset
36.Day of the week: Friday.
37.Week of the month: Wtf?
38.Month of the Year: June

LOVE LIFE ETC:
39.Do you plan on having children: Yup.
40.Do you want to get married: Yes.  At least till after 25.  I want to enjoy my young life first.
41.How old do you wanna be when you have your first child: 27
42.How old do you wanna be when your married: 25
43.Would you have kids before marriage? I don't want bastard children.
44.What would you name the boy? Toby
45.What would you name the girl? Enid, yes, I already planned these.
46.Are you a virgin?: Yes
47.If not, Do you plan on loosing your virginity ne time soon?: When I'm not so ugly. o.O
48.Have you had oral sex?: ...
49.Have no, Have you been past base 1?: I havent been anywhere.  LMFAO!  I actually just giggled at my misfortunes. XDDD
50.Do you even know what the bases are?: No.
51.Do you have a b/f or g/f (who): No.
52.Do you have a crush?: YES.  >> <<

EITHER-OR (PICK WHICH ONE YOU PREFER)
53.Music/TV: Music.
54.Guys/Girls: Guys. 
55.Green/Blue: Green.
56.Pink/Purple: Pink. 
57.Sleep/StayUp: Well...stay up at night and sleep all day.
58.Summer/Winter: Winter.
59.Spring/Fall: Fall.
60.Night/Day: Night.
61.Hangin Out/Chillin: Hangin out.
62.Friends/Lovers: Lovers.
63.Cold/Warm: Cold.
64.Fast/Slow: Slow movement, fast minds.
65.New/Old: New and old.  Depends on what.
66.Dark/Light: Both.  I live my life in grays.
67.Sparkle/Shine: Shine.
68.Peach/Plum: Peach.  Yummmm...
69.Apple/Orange: Orange
70.Laundry/Dishes: Dishes
71..Christina/Britney: Christina
72.Limp Bizkit/KoRn: KoRn
73.Rock/Rap: Rock
74.Pop/R&B: Pop

WHAT DO YOU THINK? (PUT WHAT FIRST COMES TO MIND WHEN YOU SEE THE FOLLOWING WORDS:)
75.Glass: Eyes.
76.Shake: Milkshakes.
77.Club: Dancing.
78.Sing: Krystal.
79.Loud: Dogs.
80.Garcia: Baseball.
81.Hair: My hair.
82.Ching: An asian dood.
83.Money: Bling.
84.Work: An old depressed unhappy man at a desk.
85.Play: Little kids and balls.
86.4002: A computer.
87.Betty: Betty Boop car lot.
88.Sara: An indian girl I use to know.
89.Dog: Blake.
90.Brain: Cartoons.
91.Nick: B.O
92.Frank: Hot dogs.
93.AM: Sleep.
94.FM: Car.
95.PM: Dancing.
96.Morning: Cold.
97.Ball: Jocks.

WHAT DO YOU THINK (WRITE WHAT YOU THINK OF THE FOLLOWING)
98.Eminem: He's entertaining but he just seems like a prick.
99.Rap: HATE DIE. 
100.Teenagers: We all think we're different but we're really all the same.  I laugh at us.
101.Smoking: Sick and I don't understand why people think it's cool.
102.Death: It's scary.
103.Life: It should be better than it is.  We shouldnt have to fight for everything.
104.Drinking: Don't overdo it.
105.Bomb Threats: Bomb their asses.  What?
106.Murder: Murder is only valid for revenge and not for sick pleasure.
107.Suicide: It's not cool but if you keep telling people go ahead and do it so we don't have to listen.
108.Fear: I'm afraid of almost everything.

FRIENDZ:
109.Who is your best friend?: I have too many best friends.
110.Who is the best person to hang with?: ::shrug::
111.Who is the sweetest person?: Nat.  ::hugs::
112.Whos the cutest person: Blake. 
113.Whos the nicest?: Natalie.
114.Whos the best to talk online with?: Blake.
115.Whos the most blonde: Becky, who isnt blonde.
116.Whos the weirdest: Me.
117.Whos the craziest: Krystal.
118.Loudest: KK
119.Quietest: Natalie
120.Smartest: Krystal
121.Quickest: Amber.
123.Most Trustful: Krystal.
124.Most Honest: Amber, Krystal.
125.Most Cheerful: Amber.

LAST FEW (Pointless) QUESTIONS:
126.Are you glad it's almost done? Yeah.  I'm getting sidetracked and I need to clean.
127.Are you bored? I...I'm not sure.
128.What kinda mood are you in right now? I'm excited, annoyed, sad, neglected, hopeful, confused. 
129.Did you have a good day today? No.
130.What are you doing tomorrow: No idea.
131.What did you do today?: Sleep and hang out here.

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	High
Level 7 (Violent)	Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Extreme
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very High

Take the Dante's Inferno Test br>
I had my party.  I don't really want to talk about it...not that it was bad but it was just weird.  Zack felt weird about having Blake there since Blake is hot and got most of the attention.  All the girls (exept Becky) fell madly in love with him and wanted to jump his bones. 
I'm kinda sick and my voice is totally screwed up and I sound like a 13 year old boy going through puberty but 10 times worse.  I hate it.

He's so cute and I'm a silly teenager who fell head over heels for him.  But, I'm me and there's no chance in hell no matter how sweet he is.  If you think about it, it's actually pretty pathetic of me.  I mean, once I like a guy I start paying attention to every little change & detail in his attitude towards so that means I often over-analyze things and drive myself crazy for no reason.  Sooo, I pretend NOT to like him.  Yeah, like that's gonna go over well.  e_e  I think he doesnt want to talk to me because he met this...GORGEOUS female at the mall today.   I feel intimidated and ugly.   I have to urinate, going to draw as therapy, and slap myself. o_o

::sings:: Presents and money and one year old.  Woot!  ^^;;
Well, the last few days were...eventful.   Maybe not in a fun way but at least there was somthing going on.  I've started a diet or just being kinder to my boday.  Today doesnt count though, because today is special.  I've been eating less and exersizing EVERY DAY.  The first day I did 3 miles.  It hurt to move and I couldn't breath properly the rest of the night.  It was pretty sad.  Now I'm sore anymore and I'm working hard but not the point of almost passing out. 
Yesterday, was a day to remember for a long time just for the sheer horror of it.   Me, Becky, Casi, Luke, Gage, and Becky's mom went down to the river.  I woke up late, after 11am by my sister coming in my room telling me somone called to get ready to go.  I was like, FUCK, and had litterly 5 minutes to get ready.  I took the FASTEST SHOWER OF MY LIFE and bolted around the house trying to get clothes on.  I only had time for eyeliner when she showed up.  The only thing I had clean were jeans and a long sleeved black shirt.  Bad.   I get in the car and her mom says 'Katie, you're gonna fry in jeans, don't you have any shorts?'  'Yes, but they're dirty and they smell and they're sititng on the floor of my room.'  'Well go get 'em!'  I did.  I HATE HATE HATE wearing shorts.  But I did anyway, pale skin, stubble and all.  I'm there and I'm trying to swim but the water is so freakin' cold that I was acually getting dizzy.   WELL, I'm gonna just say we hung out and then packed up to go home.   It was horrible for me because:  my hair was still wet from the shower; I had on a long sleeve black shirt on;  leg stubble; hella pale skin;  no makeup on besides eyeliner; there were tons of hot people and pretty chicks.  I'm shallow and stupid but that's just how things are. 
I spent the night at Becky's that night and didn't fall asleep till almost 4.  Insomnia sucks.  I actually watched a show on Comedy Central called Insomniac and this guy went to a studio where they were editing a porno video.  Well, the guy decides to just sit and listen to the movie for about 30 seconds so there are a bunch of sex noises coming from the TV, Becky's older brother comes out, looks at the tv, and goes in the kitchen, then back to his room.  I was like, gawd, he must think I'm so sick. 
The next day Becky and I jogged...in the rain.  It was freakin' sweet. 

That next day is today, my birthday, I'm 15!  YEAH!  My nephew ish here and he is the coolest 2 year old EVER.  I had this dead fly (don't ask) and I asked him if he wanted to hold it.  He said alright, held it, hugged it, kissed it, then said it was cute, then said he wanted to eat it, then decided to feed it to the cats.  Earlier he was playing Barbies.  He dumped out entire box of old Barbies and he has a Ken doll with a big red cowgirl hat in purple car, with topless chicks, and they were going to Grandma's.  He actually made female voices for the girls. XD
I got a pen, lipgloss, drawing pencil, earrings that broke, and a $25 gift card to Torrid.  I want friggin shoes from there, they have CUTEST shoes.  O_O  Next Saturday is my birthday party and next week I'm gonna be planning every day and it's gonna rule.  I so hope there will be good weather so we can sleep outside. o.O;

This blog makes me feel better to not have everything stacked in my head.  As a gemini my mind is already as wacked as can be and loads of stuff to think about just makes me go insane.  I'll update when I think of anything else.

1. what is your full name: Kathleen Marie Bryan 

I did this on my other blog and since my brother moved out and we got more...I figured I'd do it again.  Not to mention that it's 2AM and I'm bored out of my ever lovin' mind. e_e


1. Training Day
2. The Goonies
3.  Freaky Friday
4.  Bringin' Down the House
5.  Shrek
6.  Little Nicky
7. 12 Angry Men
8.  Thir13en Ghosts
9.  What's Eating Gilbert Grape
10.  8 Mile
11. Cast away
12.  South Park BLU
13.  South Park 3rd Season
14.  A Bridge Too Far
15.  Full Metal Jacket
16.  Finding Nemo
17.  Jurrasic Park III
18.  The Hot Chick
19.  The Cowboys
20.  The Ring
21.  The Full Monty
22.  Bruce Almighty
23.  Holes
24.  Uptown Girls
25.  Phonebooth
26.  Ronin
27.  The Bourne Identity
28.  Misery
29.  Ice Age
30.  John Q.
31.  Dirty Dancing
32.  Just Married
33.  Austin Powers: Goldmember
34.  Battle of Britain
35.  Red Dragon
37.  Predator
38.  About Schmidt
39.  The Great Escape
40.  Out of Time
41.  U-571
42.  Thelma & Louise
43.  Chicago
44.  The Patriot
45.  Tombstone
46.  Pirates of the Caribbean
47.  Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
48.  Save The Last Dance
49.  National Security
50.  Trapped
51.  The Master of Disguise
52.  The Great Santini
53.  The Family Man
54.  Basic

That's all I think. O_O

I saw Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban today!  You're probably wondering how I did since it comes out in June...welp, my great friend Krystal won these tickets to see it at a special showing 2 weeks early.  There were hundreds of people there though.  ::scratches head::  But, OMFG, ALL THE GUYS IN THIS MOVIE GOT SO HOT. O_O;;;;;;  I am in love with Harry Potter now because he's my frickin' dream boat.  Even NEVILLE got hot, 'cept for his teeth.  but DAYUM, I kinda drifted off staring during the movie because of the hotness swimming in front of my delicate, pubesent eyes. 

I'm thinking about starting up my diary again.  Like, one so nobody would ever read it.  I'm a gemini and things are constantly floating around in my skull and I need some place to put them.  I'm reading The Diary of Ellen Rimbauer so that's where I got the idea.  She is a very good writer, she's fluent and uses words I've never even heard of before.  I REALLY need to work on being fluent...I just insert commas and things to make my sentences longer.  Hehe. ^^;; I also want to learn to do caligraphy because it's perdy. ^^ But I want to do it the old fashioned way with a quill and an ink well.  (I want to run away to Hogwarts.  Knowing that that place doesn't exist makes me physically ache.  My fantasy worlds that I can only viait in my dreams make me so happy but then I get slapped in the face with the harsh reality world when I wake, making me want to keep sleeping.)

A few minutes ago I had music on and I put on bright red lip stick and started dancing around the room to the Chicago soundtrack.  I rule. 

::sigh::  Other people got to spend the night but they were going on this bird walk thing the next day so I couldnt. GAYGE.  I don't want to come back to this family, I want to stay there with my friends.  I miss them so much.  I also have talked to people I've only seen a few times but have never held a conversation with.  It was pretty nifty...I especially love when people I don't know really well laugh at my jokes.  Makes me  feel HELLA special. ^^;;  Beth and I, we got into this stupid fight thing in 7th grade and we talked today and said how much we missed eachother and are going to make plans to hang out.  I feel bad about what I did and I need to make it up to her, she really was a good friend. :) 
From my close friends I learned sooo much, and from other people too with talking and truth or dare.  Parties are a fantastic way to make new friends and to get to know others.  I sound like a moron. e_e;  At least I looked pretty while I was there! 
OMFG, when Zack kept talking about not having a girlfriend I wanted to pounce on him and shove my tongue down his throat (well, not really) to let him know that I like him. O_O  I always feel bad when I lay next to a guy on a bed or somthing and they shift away from me...I think about it and they probably don't even know they're doing it but I'm just that way.  When I left I gave Zack a REALLY good hug.  I miss him and everyone so much it hurts.  I also almost cried because I wanted Amber to be there but she was on the other end of the country while we're sitting here having a great time.  I felt horrible. 
So now I'm home, with a lump in my throat, a pang in my heart, and a crick in my neck.  Angie's party is tomarrow and I wasn't invited and I deserve because I'm mean but for my party I'm inviting everyone who was at this one, including the people I don't really know. lol  Including Angie.  I need more friends and need to learn to be nice to people.  I can't just be a heartless bitch all the time. 

K, well my wench of a sister had her birthday party and since she's a moron she thinks she can be tough and show of in front of her friends.  So she slapped me and called me a whore to make her friends laugh.  I attacked her.  She just about cried.  She left before she started to so her friend would still think she's 'cool'.  Moron.  e_e
But the best part of somone in the house having a birthday is the fact that you can have cake for breakfast.  Sad but cool. O_O;;

My next blog theme HAS be either the Kidney Thieves or Veruca Salt.  Those bands are awesome. ^^  I'm not gonna change it for a while though.  Spent too much time on this one.  I figured out a site name though.  Glam Trash.  Yup, it rules.  I'm not gonna even work with it on Geocities because I'm waiting for my parents to buy me my domain. DX  Damn them.

I might go see Van Helsing tonight. Woot!  ::dries hair:: See ya!